Bohemian Raphsody by OmegaPatten.flv

I LOVE THIS KID!

OneRepublic - Good Life.flv

This group just keeps getting better and better! Love the way they mimic whistling in this song..

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved.flv

I don't think I have seen a video quite like this one. Whew!

Miley Cyrus - The Climb .flv

She gets a lot of static from people.. but this girl can sing her butt off.. this song is one of those songs that makes you think you can do anything if you set your mind to it.

August 16, 2011 I WAS BORED AND....

August 16, 2011I WAS BORED AND...
I was bored this weekend so I turned on ole Harveyetta.. my computers name... and we went surfing my old video hosting site for anything,

....That was funny.....

This is what we came up with... and on the off chance that you might be bored and in need of a laugh or two, I will share them with you!

I know.. I am awesome sometimes ... it is a curse... sigh..
wink!

EMERSON

WHY ICE FISHING SUCKS A NINJA RABBIT AND A FRAIDY SNAKE You must try to generate happiness within yourself. If you aren't happy in one place, chances are you won't be happy anyplace.
(Ernie Banks)

lockerridge

WHY ICE FISHING SUCKS.flv

I Agree.. it sucks to be this guy!

Rabbit chasing a big snake.flv

Emerson - Mommy's Nose is Scary.flv

Snot can be a little terrifying.. or funny... or terrifying.. or funny.. wink!

AUGUST 3, 2011 HOMEGROWN

AUGUST 3, 2011 HOMEGROWN

The photo up there is of my best achievement in the department of growing and tending a seedling into a full grown tree.
 He isn't producing acorns yet.. but he is sure enough got what it takes to produce more than I ever could!
 If you have not guessed or known already.. this is my son..
Jamie Lee McCain. Born on Nov. 1 (All Saints Day) 1983.
He has taken a while to get there.. but he is on his way to getting the degree in Marine Biology Engineering that he has always wanted. The only problem with that is the fact that, to do this, he has to move eleven hours by car away from his Momma.. ME..
 sigh..
 I always knew he was never going to be content to simply be another number in a factory, or only connect with a few people he had known all his life. In other words.. my boy is moving to Knoxville, Tennessee, this Thursday the 5th of August, and I already miss him terribly!
When he was born, I was scared to death of him, and asked his father .. okay now I have got him on the outside.. what do we do now?
 His answer was simply" We grow this little sucker up"... and so we did.
 Now it is time for Momma to let go a little bit more.. but, I think maybe he is having a hard time a little bit too.
He is somebody I have come to repect and admire in his ability to see the big picture and pinpoint that section he wishes to enter and maybe change it a bit, or just sink into it and live life fully.
 And then ... this is the awesome portion of my son that he did not inherit from me..

He Actually Does It!
Yeah.. not all talk.. and a whole lot of walk.. he has courage and I suppose he has that a little bit cause he knows I am behind him in case he falls down.. not to scoop him up and make it all better.. nope!
I am allowed only to listen to him if needed and give advice if asked.. and hug a lot all the time!

Since he waited a while before starting to school in earnest, he has had to go back to Junior College and pick up some basics, and since UofA does not offer the classes he needs to get the degree he desires.. he had to transfer to a school that did.

He applied to and was accepted, so he will enter into the University of Tennessee in this fall semester, with all of the basics caught back up and add into the mix Calculus and Chemistry..

all A's my friends.. all A's!

Yeah.. That's.....

MY BABY RIGHT THERE!

Thank you Lord for Helping me out when I had to be both Mom and Dad when we lost his Dad. when he was at the tender age of fifteen.Wiithout that guidance, I don't know what I would have produced, but it sure wouldn't have been someone as wonderful as this young man is ..

Please pray for him ..
 he is trying so hard..
so please pray for my son..
he is worthy.

 Mom Loves Jamie ..

You are not here merely to make a living.
You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement.
You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand.

(Woodrow Wilson)



The Future is So Bright.. I Gotta Wear Shades

lockerridge

JULY 28, 2011 THE ANCIENT ART OF POOFING

JULY 28, 2011
THE ANCIENT ART OF POOFING   The spinning lady up there is what is known as a bistable optical illusion.
Which, I don't know about y'all, but that means squat to me... What I get out of it, is that you can make her spin in different directions, clockwise or counterclockwise if you do a couple of things with either your mind or simply by covering up one eye to look at her, But for all us doubting Lockies out there in the real world..    there is the official type scientific explanation which is...

"The illusion, created by web designer Nobuyuki Kayahara, involves the apparent direction of motion of the figure. Some observers initially see the figure as spinning clockwise and some counterclockwise. If the foot touching the ground is perceived to be the left foot, the dancer appears to be spinning clockwise (if seen from above); if it is taken to be the right foot, then she appears to be spinning counterclockwise."

 Source Wikipedia..Click Here.

You just stare at her for a minute or until your eyes start to water and burn, and she will stop spinning clockwise and actually turn around and go counter clockwise. I can say this happened to me, when I gave it a try .. so.. perhaps they are not lying about it.. this time.. wink!
Now your thinking what in the world has this to do with the Poofing thing that got me over here in the first place... well it is just an illustration of the power of our minds over matter and I do not mean emotions this time. I am talking about real "magic" folks!
Now don't get nervous on me.. not witchcraft.. nothing dark or satanic about this.. this is.. well this is just fun!  I was sitting in a doctors waiting room, cause they were running late and therefore ruining my whole pick up schedule, so instead of getting strung out and kicking my foot against the chair leg, I picked up one of their magazines. It had an article on the power of our minds being so much more than anyone thinks they are. It commented that the reason we don't use our brains to their maximum is because we "think" we "can't" do anymore than just wish for things to happen. We are not actually directing our thought energy to bring it about. One can simply bring things into motion and create an action into existence by thinking it will.
Think I am nuts huh? Well, I don't hold it against ya.. everybody thinks that at first, till you try it.. and then you will be amazed by it!
This does not work on people, by the way.. so just get that thought out of your mind totally! You must not use this power for evil.. LOL!
Basically so far I have been able to control traffic lights to a degree that I almost never have to sit through a red light anymore!
 Yeah Baby.. that is some kind of wonderful right there!
In case you have forgotten, I make my living as a courier for LabCorp in Fayetteville, Arkansas, and there is at least a million traffic lights on my route.. well probably exaggerated that a bit.. but sometimes it sure feels that way. When you have to sit through one of those turn arrows to make a street change and you are in a line of traffic so long that you go through three cycles of the turn light before your turn comes up.. makes a person sympathetic to those who suffer from road rage and go postal on people.
But not for me anymore .. I have learned the art of Poofing!
 When I first have visual contact with a traffic light, I begin to "Poof! You will turn Green for me" thought pattern and it will change just as I start to slow down to stop,
like magic!
 I am not talking about just one light.. you know all traffic signals have different times they stay a certain color and they are all set differently. But this works on every one of them.. no matter what the timer is set on..
 Lockie goes when she gets there!
After I get this set on automatic in my brain to take over when it sees a light.. I am going to shoot for the moon and see if I can make the street clear when I need to pull out from a stop.. now that will be exceptional Poofing if I can get that working for me too!
Stay loose, stay cool, if nothing else is working for ya.. just Poof it!

"If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think another negative thought."
Peace Pilgrim

My current favorite
Graffiti 6
Annie You Save Me

  lockerridge

LED ZEPPELIN - Stairway to Heaven Live.flv

Classic.. Compelling... and still .. oh so very Cool!

Graffiti6 - Annie You Save Me.flv

Took me forever to get someone to tell me who this artist was and the name of this song.. but Lockie won! This has fast become my favorite of the moment.. the video is not really inspiring.. but just close your eyes and listen to the music.. it is great!

Simon's Cat 'Fly Guy.flv

I think I could actually marry this cat, and live happily, laughing constantly, ever after!

Cher - Believe - Official Music Video HQ.flv

She is in her sixties and looks better than she did at age 20! The one and only.. CHER.

To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity 1. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write ' For Marijuana. 2. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face. 3. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'. 4. Sing Along At The Opera. 5. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You have a headache. 6. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!' 7. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.' And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity 8. PICK UP A BOX OF CONDOMS AT THE PHARMACY, GO TO THE COUNTER AND ASK WHERE THE FITTING ROOM IS.

Fireflies.flv

I love this one!

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris.flv

Listen closely to understand the deep story in this song.

The Ark In Space-Australian Peacock Spider.flv

Teeny Tiny cutest spider I have ever seen! Only live in Australia... and man can they dance when a good looking girl comes by.. lol.. this is too cute and you end up rooting for the little fella..

OneRepublic - Secrets.flv

Humm.. wonder if Justin is talking to Brittany? I like it!

OneRepublic - Marchin On.flv

This is one of those songs you catch yourself humming long after you hear it.. We're Marching On!

Goo Goo Dolls - Slide.flv

Another weird name for a group.. I mean really guys.. you couldn't come up with something better than Goo Goo Dolls? Guess not.. crazy name.. but oh can they ever sing you a song.. and this is one of my favorites. from 1999.

Michael Bauble - Haven't Met You Yet .flv

I LOVE this one... the future is WIDE OPEN!

Gotta quiz link to determine your decorating style from Better Homes and Garden magazine.. I am a Polished Casual decorator myself.. if that means.. I casually polish furniture about once a month.. they got me pegged for sure!http://www.bhg.com/decorating/decorating-style/quiz/?psrc=S1104BRL4042S130_decoratingstyle

Jackson-and-Dani-toy-2.flv

What happens when you tickle a penguin.flv

This is sooo cute! A baby penguin giggling when it s tickled..

John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change.flv

Gary Allan - I Don't Look Back.flv

Been gettin' back into my country roots a little bit this last week.. I had forgotten how much I love to listen to Gary Allan... dude is good!

Gary Allan - Crying For Nothing.flv

Gary Allan seems to have been where I have been, seen what I have seen, and lived to sing about it.. wonder if I will .. wink!

Frog_dance1.flv

Trying to get a decent quality video of this insane and oh so funny fella!

Trace Adkins - Brown Chicken Brown Cow.flv

I LOVE IT!!!!!

Dire Straits - Money For Nothing.flv.flv

Warning .. this is the complete version without any politically correct deletes! Love it!

Looney Tunes - Bugs Bunny in Transylvania 6-5000.flv

Looney Tunes - One Froggy Evening.flv

Hello my baby Hello My honey.. Hello my ragtime gal...!!!!!!

Blah Blah Blah stuff..

This cartoon is the property of Warner Bros.. only intention in posting on this site is entertainment only.. I claim no ownership to this cartoon.

Keith Urban - Somebody Like You.flv

Keith Urban Rocks!

Bugs Bunny and Marvin the Martian - starring in - Hare way to the stars.flv

Okay.. this is not my cartoon.. yada yada yada.. don't want to lay claim to it only posted for entertainment.. blah blah blah.. so forth and so on.. belongs to warner bros... and God bless them for making it for us!

Dire Straits - Local Hero.flv

This is one of the most beautiful instrumentals I have ever heard... if I can't sleep, I put it on a continuous loop from the computer and the cares just melt away.

Bread - Baby I'm A Want You - Lyrics.flv

Kid Rock - Only God Knows Why.flv

This is a little bit long in length.. but .. it is Kid Rock.. I mean who doesn't love the Kid? From 2006.. loved it then.. still loving it now. He wrote this himself and as in all his music he is talking about how he feels some days about living the life of a super star. The video has a lot of footage from different shows he has performed and gives you an idea of the kind of energy he puts into all he does.

Looney Toons - Terrier Stricken.flv

This cartoon is the copyrighted property of Warner Brothers. I do not claim any ownership of same cartoon and have posted it here with only the intention of entertainment value.
Now that the disclaimer is done.. Claude the Cat.. and Frisky the Puppy... my all time favorite Looney Tunes cartoon!

Little Miss by Sugarland with lyrics

Katy Perry - Firework.flv

This is really good!

Bruno Mars - Grenade.flv

New one! I like it!

Don Henely and Pattie Smythe Sometimes Love Ain't Enough.avi

bugs bunny - sahara hare.flv

This cartoon is the property of Warner Bros. and I lay no claim to the copyright or ownership of same cartoon.
Now that the disclaimer is out of the way.. I LOVE THIS CARTOON!! Whoa Camel.. when I say whoa. I mean Whoa!

Reba McEntyre Turn On Your Radio.flv

Reba Rocks! I love this new song! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!

What Do You Want From Me - Jerrod Neimann.flv

My life in a song..

DECEMBER 7, 2010 THE BEST COMMERCIAL FORD MOTOR CO. EVER MADE

DECEMBER 7, 2010
THE BEST COMMERCIAL
 FORD MOTOR CO.
 EVER MADE

A friend sent this video of a Ford commercial that is simply the best one I have ever seen. I wanted to share it with you, because I feel like we all could use a little infusion of warmth into our daily lives right about now.
 Be sure to watch till the very end of this one.

Thank you David for the this little spark to remind me that there are
 still some companies in this mighty nation, that have not given into the easy, sleasy way out.

 Ford is the only car manufacturer in the U.S. who did not take any of the bailout money..,

I drive a Ford.

 

lockerridge

Kid Rock - Roll On.flv

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BonJovi - What Do You Got.flv

Bon Jovi is still cranking out some great music! This song tells a story that I can testify to be the truth of it all. Things mean nothing without someone who loves you to share it with.

Sick Puppies - Maybe.flv

Okay.. what ever prompted these three people to call their group Sick Puppies is beyond me, but.. that does not detract from the fact that THIS is a great song!

ROD STEWART - Still I look to find a reason....flv

I just like this song. A lot.

Having one of those days, ya know? Some days I think I have about figured it out. Then something comes along and throws all that out the window. Confusion reigns with me on this Halloween.... The answers seem so Far Away from me today.http://divshare.com/download/13035454-95f

For those who miss me when I am not around.. computer had the blue screen of death, have reinstalled my OS and am waiting impatiently for the one million updates from Microsoft, Adobe, McAfee, Java... and so on and so forth.. ad um nauseum... so have a good day that turns into a good week.. that rounds off into a good month ... and hopefully at the end of twelve of them.. we can all say.. eh.. it wasn't that bad of a year.. really!.. wink.. Lockie

SEPTEMBER 22, 2010 IF I WERE A FROG

SEPTEMBER 22, 2010
 IF I WERE A FROG

I know that the graphic I have up there is an old one.. but I have always loved the sentiment it has with it. It makes me want to be the frog instead of the bird. I know the odds are against the frog.. but.. that guy has got what it takes to make it in this world. He never gives up in the face of almost certain defeat, he is fighting till the end. And sometimes I bet he wins!

Someday's it just does not seem to be worth the trouble. Let me give you an example of me trying to get a simple thing done like taking my company car to get it serviced.
The policy is that every 7500 miles or when the life of the oil in the car is below 30 percent, we need to take the company car in to have it serviced. This is taken care of for us by a service center that is contracted by the company. It is no cost to the employee except the trouble of having the interruption in their daily routine.
Since I am new to the job and since I was fortunate enough back in May to have my very first ever traffic accident which resulted in the totaling of my car.. not me.. just the car.. and I was given a new one to drive.. I have not had to have it serviced yet. Well.. to tell the truth, I had no idea when this was to take place since I did not read the stuff they provide for us to read in the glove compartment of the car.

 ( shhhh... that will be our little secret okay?)

Anyway in the course of the end of the day on Wednesday of last week, I overheard one of my co workers telling the guidelines and when I got into my car to go home.. let me just say I was about twenty five hundred miles over, and so I determined this was to be remedied right away!
So on Thursday, when I got to work I asked if the extra car was being used by anyone, and got permission to drive it that day and another lady followed me to the service place and we dropped it off. They were busy and so I put the keys in the cup holder and jumped in the other ladies car and went back and picked up the extra to drive home and back the next day.. thinking by two in the afternoon, it would be done.
Any other time this would have been great
but .. when your ole pal lockie did it.. it did not work out at all.. sigh.. I got to work and called and the guy that answered, asked me what I wanted done to the car.. that they could not find the keys to it.. and blah blah blah.. which was a pile of malarkey ... cause when I hung up.. my supervisor said.. humm.. " Hang on a minute"... so I hung on of course. He called them and low and behold.. they had not even gone out to the thing to see if the keys were in it.. they found them of course.. profuse apologies.. blah blah blah..
So I drove the extra car on my route and expecting to pick up my car when I was done.. called them and this time a lady answered and put me on hold.. for fifteen minutes.. then came on the line to say.. it would be Saturday afternoon before it was done.. sigh..
So I told her to please just lock it up and I would pick it up on Monday.
I had already unloaded all my personal stuff from the loaner car and had to tote it all back out and then I realized it needed fuel.. my fuel credit card was in my car getting serviced.. and my boss had not put his in the loaner car like he said he would.. so.. after work I went up to the service place and tried unsuccessfully to get into my car to get my card.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh..
I put a little bit of gas in the car to get me home and back again cause if you do that kind of thing.. you never.. ever get that money back.. no matter how much you requisition it .. it just don't happen.
When I got to work yesterday, I called and my car was ready to go. My boss gave me a ride in the loaner car to pick it up and dropped me off and went back to the lab. It took a little while to wait my turn and get my keys and blah blah blah..
Got in it and wouldn't you know it.. it needed fuel... and my card was not in the car where I had left it.. so .. I went back in to see if they had put it somewhere for me.. but nope they had not.. hummm... stranger and stranger..
Went back to the lab with time running really really short for me to make my pickups on time, and my boss was gone somewhere and had absentmindedly put the keys to the loaner in his pocket, and all my stuff was still in it.. sigh..
But upon inspection of his desk drawer I did find a fuel card! Yippee! right?  Wrong.....
He didn't care that I took the card, but he was the one who had gone and got the fuel card out of my car and had forgotten about it.. so the card I used was his.. and when I tried to use it to put fuel in my car.. it came back that I had to call the provider because the mileage I had given it to use was totally wrong.. sigh.. sigh..
So I ended up putting ten dollars worth out of my pocket in it to get my route taken care of.. all this time.. my two way is yelling at me to explain what was wrong with the card, and what did I need them to do for me to fix it.. ( I work with some really nice people).. to which I had no answer for them except,
 "Please stop yelling at me ... I almost got kicked out of the women's clinic and got some really nasty looks from the security guard at the hospital!"
They said ..
"Oh.. okay.. did the guard pull his gun on you?"
I said,
"No.. but he gave me the evil eye... I probably will have hair growing out of my nose a foot long,  and it is all your fault!"
They said they would chip in for a bottle of Nair and not to worry about it.
Did I mention I work with some really mentally disturbed people? I fit right in!

So the day ended with me getting my car back, but now having to use a different fuel card.. that might work.. or might not..  haven't tried it yet..

But you notice.. I did not give up..

The frog would have been proud!
Eddie Money.. Take Me Home Tonight

lockerridge

SEPTEMBER 19, 2010 I HEARD WHAT I WAS LISTENING TO!

SEPTEMBER 19, 2010

I HEARD WHAT
 I WAS
LISTENING TO!

Have you ever thought about all of these inspirational quotes we read and think to ourselves.. "How True!"... and we get the code for it and we post it all over every site we happen to be a member of, to share the truth of what you have read?
This brings others to read and comment on how it is a true and worthy statement, made by a wise individual and, we would all do well to abide by it if possible.
 Then we promptly forget it and move on to the next "wisdom" to listen to without really hearing what it is saying to us.I am guilty of doing this, and never really gaining any benefit from the one whose life had given them the inspiration and experience to impart it to the rest of the world in hopes of helping another poor soul in their journey of life.
If I did, I would surely apply it to my own life, and therefore have an easier time of knowing which doors to open, and which ones to close.
I listen to music a lot, and some of the song lyrics brings with them such a kinship with me that I carry the memory of the song and the circumstances that surrounded me at the time I was given it to listen to forward in life, to be with me always, but somehow, I never remember a time when I applied those lyrics to my life.
If for no other reason than to prove to myself that the person who wrote it, was just trying to make a dollar with a catchy melody, or if they really meant what they were pouring out of their soul to the world.
I have been in such a state of brain fry for months now that I cannot make a decision without second guessing myself... this not only makes my life one of never ending self made problems, it drives anyone who is around me for very long slightly insane.
My son being the principal one who is catching all the fall out from my lack of confidence in my ability to make good decisions.  Unfortunately he has been through this before with me, and knows how to handle things without getting angry or running away screaming.
He is a level headed, calm, and sane person, while I run around changing my mind every hour or two to the point that nothing can go forward and lots has to go backward, and then forward again an hour or two later.. I don't realize I am doing it when I am in the midst of insanity, and when I do realize it...
Well lets just say... he has been eating lots of "I am sorry"...
"Order what ever you want" suppers ....
My treat.
I have to get it together, cause he is getting fat and I am going broke!
  All that food and no exercise from getting things done will soon have him not able to fit into the clothes we just got him for school this semester.
Well I am doing it again.. I digress and the point I am making is going to be so pointless by the time I get to it.. you will run away screaming... cause you have not been in training for twenty six years like my kid, on how to keep her on track without derailing her completely..
so onward ...
At my place of employment we have a lot of people lately who have been facing terminally ill close family members.
My supervisor's wife is one of the most courageous women I have ever encountered.
She has been fighting cancer for fifteen years now, with treatment and remissions several times, except this time. She has been expected to not make it through the night, several times during this last six weeks, and he has taken time off to be able to keep her at home, and comfortable in her own home.
The doctors call her a miracle ...
Another co-worker's grandmother suffers from Alzheimer's disease and had a bout with pneumonia that led to blood clots, surgery, and renal shutdown. They airlifted her out of Washington Regional here in Fayetteville to the Baptist Hospital in Little Rock,  not giving much hope she would survive the flight, but there was nothing else they could do for her there.
That was two weeks ago, and they let her go home last Thursday.
The families have been called in several times in both of these dear women's knocks on deaths door, and I have watched both my supervisor and co-worker go through the familiar feelings I know too well.
It also imparted to me a blessing from their pain.
All of my life I have heard the quote..
" Live each day as if it were your last"
I said I have heard it, but I never really listened to it before.
So I set about figuring out what I would do if I knew that in 24 hours I would never be here again.
No putting things off to do tomorrow, no more changing my mind if I wanted to, it would be final.. no going back.
I thought to myself that I should try an experiment the next day and treat it as if I would never get another day to say and do what I would like to be remembered for saying and doing.
I actually made myself go a full 24 hours in this mode, and it was the biggest blessing I have ever received, second only to being the mother of Jamie Lee.
I found I wanted to laugh and not think about the crapola that really doesn't mean anything after it has been done.
The people who have let me down in my life, can't take it back.
I can't cry and wallow in my own personal little hole of self pity and make life any better.
As a matter of fact.. I found that it was aggravating if those emotions surfaced that day.
I took my phone and I placed a phone call to the one who had hurt me the most and I just visited with him. I told him jokes and he did likewise, we laughed over sweet memories we shared.
God smiled.
So I have been choosing at least one day a week to spend it like it was my last one on earth.
  Those are the best days of the week...
and God smiles.

My current favorite...
Rob Thomas... Small Wonders

"Life can be a lot sweeter, if while your listening ...  you hear what is being said "

I like it when God smiles.

lockerridge

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas - Lyrics on Screen - (HQ).flv

This song says so much with so little words! This is my favorite at the moment... the music is just the right combination of emotions that I can relate to their meaning so well.

This man singing this beautiful song, also wrote it. His name is Rob Thomas and if your familar with the rock music band Matchbox 20, you will recognize his voice as the same as the lead singer was from that group. They also made some wonderful music in their times together.. Relax and click onto it and read the words as the song plays.. you will understand why I love it so much.

Terri

August 29, 2010 ... Lockie on the Move Again

 

August 29, 2010
Lockie on the Move Again

Hello my friends who probably think I fell off the edge of the world since it has been so long between blogs.
 I guess I kind of did fall off the edge a bit, for a while there. Seemed like nothing was ever going to stay good in my life in reference to those I love.
I keep losing them... and that is a bitch when you can't go where they are to find them again.

 I seem to not be able to see the symptoms of a totally one sided relationship, and in the same vein  the ones I love, seem to not ever love me as much as I do them, and I seem to always end up getting really hurt.
 like I am absolutely nothing but something to use, it seems they have a way of making me feel guilty if I say no to one of their requests.  In the end it does not net me anything except getting hurt and used.

I do not know why I have this ability to make myself into someone whom they do not respect, but I have taken some time and put a lot of thought into the matter and I have decided...

 I can't help who I am.

 I can't help how I treat people, and it is really a sad thing when that kind of giving personality attracts the most sneaky and dishonest types of people. I am trying to not be so naive in my handling of the new people who have come into my life lately, and I absolutely hate this kind of thinking that makes me look to see if they are just trying to get something out of me later on by being nice to me today.

 I do not trust anyone anymore and I simply hate it!

I thought perhaps if I moved to a new location and left all the nasty memories and people behind it would be better ... but once again I am...

WRONG!

When I closed on this piece of property I bought in the town I am now working in ... it was a part of the agreement that the seller would provide for me a perc test for the septic system. This test is supposed to provide the health department with a soil sampling to determine if the septic system will drain well by the soil type and if I can just put in a standard type septic tank and the lateral lines leading out from it in a normal type way.. okay.. I am cool with that.. since I will be on city water anyway.. I am not to worried about the ground water becoming contaminated from a septic system..
So after I had closed on the property and put in for an address to be issued to me, I contacted the water company and put in a request to be hooked into their water line that runs in front of the property.. it took them two weeks to call me and tell me that there were no more hookups on the line allowed on that particular system. Apparently the developer of the property opted to not upgrade the water system when he started to sell the lots..

ARGH!

I was irritated to say the least and contacted the real estate agent about the whole thing.. she told me that it was not a matter that had to be disclosed to me in the normal disclosures, one has to provide when selling a piece of property, if it does not have an existing home on it..

 sucks but legal.. sigh..

So I drilled a well. It sounds as though it will provide enough water to me to do anything I need to do.. but since the electric company has taken a month to get to me.. how the hell am I supposed to know if it does or not since I can't get the pump in the well without power to tell me if it is what the driller said it was or not!

Back to the septic system and perc test... sigh... when I contacted a plumber about getting the pump in the well, the gas hooked up from the natural gas line and the septic system put in the ground.. he told me I needed a copy of the perc test to give him with the septic system diagram on it that a rep from the health department was supposed to have filed with the health department. So I went to the health department and they have nothing on file from any perc test done for me.. and when I gave them the name of the woman who was to do the diagramming and all the filing with them.. she said that another person was given my project and when the health department tried to contact him.. he is getting a divorce and the contact number is no good and no one knows where the hell he is living at now..

and he has already been paid....

 I feel a major screwing coming over me without aide of lubricant!!!

I have given up on anyone from the new town being honest and trying to help me by actually doing their jobs. So I contacted my electrician from home and he has promised to help me all he can. I am already into him for over 600 dollars in materials and labor and I am still yet to have power or water or sewer or gas to my house!

 He is scheduled to come back tomorrow to hook the house up to the power which, the power company told him on Friday they could not set the meter until Monday... I was there yesterday and the meter was in the loop..

ARGH!!!!!!!

I have reached maximum overload folks!!

Tomorrow I plan to arrive very early indeed to the new town in which I am moving and make a mark for myself.

I mean a big black streak with fire shooting from it!

This is what is commonly called..

 BULLSHIT!..

 where I come from and I do think it would be known to the rest of the country as such also.

 Why does this always happen to Terri?...

 I guess cause they can do it to me and I never reach maximum overload...
 This is a learned quality I think, and I am about to learn how!
So I will fill you in later on the results of my fact finding mission tomorrow and until then...

"Never let 'em see you sweat, and don't make apologies for who you are just to feel valued by others."
Dire Straits Instrumental

lockerridge

I have found something new about my personality this weekend. I have discovered, I dislike mowing the yard very much, and I don't even want to get started on weed-eaters and what I feel about them, and leaf blowers could actually drive me to violence I think.

TOP TEN INDICATORS THAT YOUR EMPLOYER HAS CHANGED TO A CHEAPER HEALTH CARE PLAN:(10) Your annual breast exam is done at Hooters.(9) Directions to your doctor's office include "Take a left when you enter the trailer park."(8) The tongue depressors taste faintly of Fudgesicles.(7) The only proctologist in the plan is from Roto-Rooter..(6) The only item listed under Preventive Care Coverage is "an apple a day..."(5) Your primary care physician is wearing the pants you gave to Goodwill last month.(4) "The patient is responsible for 200% of out-of-network charges," is not a typographical error.(3) The only expense covered 100% is "embalming."(2) Your Prozac comes in different colors with little M's on them.AND THE NUMBER ONE SIGN YOU'VE JOINED A VERY CHEAP HEALTH CARE PLAN:(1) You ask for Viagra and they give you a Popsicle stick and Duct tape

Memories are crowding in today. Another change in my life is on its way north and I am following it. I am a little sad, a lot excited, timidly hopeful, and nervously scared all at the same time. Emotional multitasking.. kind of like rowing a boat in a bathtub. I am working like crazy and getting .. nowhere!... LOL

Attachment Blog

An attachment blog for me only.

Attachment: LabCorp_Montly_MIA_Employee_Report.htm

Giant Double Rainbow and Shrooms 1-8-10.flv

This video is proof positive that one should not eat the wild mushrooms! Or any of them that someone tells you will make you a bit disoriented... or just plain out there in the wild blue yonder somewhere..

What does it all mean:?

And Then I Said.flv

And then I said.... lol!

2 Funny Babies Laughing.flv

This is an older video, if you can call something three or four years old... that I have watched over and over again and it always makes me laugh out loud and feel so good to be alive!

Keith Urban - You'll Think of Me (Best Live Performance).flv

He understands the human condition.... he feels every word of this song and I can relate and know the feelings he is singing about... love this guy!

Train - Calling All Angels.flv

Reaching Out to God...

Train.... When I Look to the Sky .flv

This is how I feel sometimes, when I am in need of a simple touch or feeling, on those days when life is simply too much for me to understand it alone without advice or support.... I look to the sky and sometimes... I am in the presence of those who have gone to their place in heaven ahead of me

KeithUrbanCMT10ImIn.flv

I know I have been radio button surfing a lot lately and have drifted back to rock music a lot.. but I am still loyal to my favorite ..

The best entertainer in music in 2010 and all previous years since I first heard him singing "Somebody Like You"...

Keith Urban Live on CMT Music Awards performing .. Baby I'm In...

Train - Drops of jupiter video and lyrics.flv

This song makes very little sense.. they have a video that explains what is behind the lyrics.. but I don't care why whomever wrote it .. wrote it.. I love it just because of its very nature of not making any sense at all.. the only emotion this one pulls up is fun! I don't know about you all.. but I could use a whole barrel full of fun these days.. sure is a lot easier to make it to the next day to come if you can find the things in everyday that show you.. DO NOT TAKE LIFE TOO SERIOUSLY... it'll kill ya!

Train once again .. singing.. Drops of Jupiter

Train - Hey Soul Sister (Lyrics).flv

The time I spend behind the wheel of a car to do my job and the getting to work and then home again affords me a lot of premium radio listen time. I have become a picky listener, and after I listen to country for a couple of days straight... I have come to realize.. all stations have ten songs they like and they play them over and over again ... so.. I have rediscovered what I used to love about rock music. Some of the stuff is .. terrible. But a few have hit my eardrums that I love.. This one is so cute and catchy.. and since I do have the car to myself.. I let it loose right along with them..

Train.. singing.. Hey Soul Sister..

In the Air tonight LIVE- phil collins.flv

For a song that you can feel from your head to your toes.. nothing beats this one..

HippoPupLionSleepsTonight.flv

I LOVE this video! The dog is just.. well.. watch it and you'll see!

Its Too Late to apologize -(with lyric).flv

I gave up on rock music when it became rap music a few years back .. but I heard this one day over the speakers at a store when I was shopping and it stuck with me for days.. finally gave up and had to find out what it was and who sings it.. really surprised me when it turned out to be Justin Timberlake, who has now formed a new group called Timbaland singing with the group One Republic.. This is just a really good song which is applicable to my life right now, it is both artistic and haunting, do not be surprised if hours after you listen to it.. you find yourself singing it absentmindedly..

FishingBoat.flv

I think this is the only method of catching fish my son never thought of when he was younger.. This really brought me some super great memories.

MAY 16, 2010 FOR THE LOVE OF JACKSON

MAY 16, 2010
FOR THE LOVE OF JACKSON  

My West Highland Terrier, Jackson, developed a genetic problem with his liver and after a week in the hospital.. he was improving somewhat and I was to bring him home yesterday.
 When I got to the vet to pick him up.. he had lost all he had gained and we knew he just needed to be let go on to a place of no pain.
No comments this time my wonderful friends...
This blog is a tribute to my little fuzzy friend.
This is a sad thing and I am too brittle to be able to handle your love and sympathy, and I know you all do understand and love me... as I love each one of you.
  When I open the door to come in after work.. I miss him being on the back of the couch and so overjoyed with my appearance... it would take at least thirty minutes of me holding him and talking to him to get him to calm down.
He was just a sweet tempered little bitty dog, who meant so much to me...
I can't understand why...
Why I had to give him back to God.

He was my constant companion for over a year, and was my warm and loving friend while I have gone through one of the worst times in my life.
He was just a sweet loving little bitty dog... and he loved me and I loved him..
I can't understand it.. I can't figure out why.. why I couldn't have him here with me..  
Today I dig in the ground and give back to the earth, the body, of one of the best friends I have ever had.
 Rest in peace my sweet Jackson..
I miss you so very, very much...

lockerridge

For those who might wonder about me.. I am going to be offline for an extended amount of time. I do not know when I will be back, but I am sure I will return at some date.I have had another blow to my personal life and I can't seem to concentrate very well right now. But hopefully I will be alright soon. I can't seem to stop myself from setting up the scenario to let myself be hurt by people I trusted. And this time it is a really big one. Got a lot of soul searching to do, to find out what it is that makes me the way I am, open to anyone with a dart or a knife to the back, and they feel justified in doing it to me. I am doing something wrong.. and I need to find out what it is and fix it before I do anything else in the way of changes. And I will need all of my concentration to be able to get past this time of disability in the way of broken love and trust and the unveiling of the true persons whom I thought loved me in the form of family members, but are dishonest and lie to me for months and months. Love to you all.Lockerridge