HELP FOR THE BROKEN HEARTED...
ALL I NEEDED WAS MY FRIENDS...
LIVE TO LOVE ANOTHER DAY...
You know what it is like when you have a pimple come up on your face and you know it is going to hurt to get the pus out of the sore, and it is going to leave an ugly swollen lump right there where everyone can see it, and feel sorry for you?
This is the relating scenario that I attribute to this breakup of mine. I just felt so terribly terribly scared when he didn't come home.. when he would not take my calls.. when the only way I could find out he was okay was through his mother. I just couldn't stand the fear and yes pain of losing yet another partner.
I have been with this man for ten years. Ten years is a very long time, you know.
I just forgot the bad and only longed for the good times. I was not seeing what was really there if I could have stopped the emotional roller coaster that I was riding on, which is the product of the way he left me.
Without a word of any kind to what he was about to do and without any kind of communications at all afterward.
He sneaked two changes of clothes out of the house, and as far as I can tell that is all he took with him.
The feelings he was with another woman sure didn't help either! I still do not know where he is... I have not heard from him. I have left several messages on his phone, but he just has not responded except once, and he lied to me then.
He told me he would come to visit me on Friday and would call to say when, sometime during the day. He never did either of those things.. and yes it really hit me hard.
He lied ... if he could do this easily as he did it then.. wonder how many times he has lied to me about other things.
I may be totally wrong about this but .. I am at a point that when he didn't call me back after I called and told him his horse had kicked me, I sure would have wanted to know if he was okay if something like that happened to him..
but I guess he just doesn't care or believe me... he will when he comes back to pick her up and she has been sold.
They come to pick her up Thursday. I refuse to be afraid to walk in my pasture if I want to, because of someone elses horse!
I suppose the point I am trying to make is that I have finally stopped and let my friends here who live close to me, and those here on the net who seem even closer in come ways talk to me and it sink in...
Dani, JL, OJ, and all the rest of you are wonderful.. wonderful.. supportive and love me dearly..
yet it took the comments from the oldest of my friends here on the net to jerk me around and look at what was really happening..
My friend Pradeep Nair.. or PD to me and all those he loves.. spoke volumes to me in these two comments.. I love you too Pd!
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PD COMMENT ON THE FIRST BLOG
I don't know what to write or how to console you I am not good at it but sure understands your condition and my mind is with you though in an up-set condition right now as you are not supposed to go through such scenarios; knowing you since years and sharing everything with me.
Can see that you are ready to sell the home to please and make him be with you (though it not something recommendable),
what else a lady can do more than this and he still….!!
Any relationship that broken can be related to crack on the glass you may able to patch it up but a total repairing isn’t possible, that’s the truth we need to face.
Hopes and prays for betterment Lockie
Love you
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PD COMMENT ON THE LAST BLOG
The last two lines of the song well states your mind Lockie. Menopause is a natural process for which someone getting blamed is not acceptable, I wish and prays that the HRT will bring some happiness in your relation,
Lockie I can see that you are literally ready to do anything to keep the relation especially on the comment you wrote to Dani ready gave up this much and homer do not care!!,
and as Dani said you are taking the blame if you feel that it would help itz fine.
Love you Lockie
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You are so right my friend.. I would have given him anything.. I mean anything at all to come back. Yet he chose to leave me crying and drove away to not call or even check on me through our friends.. he is not worthy of my generosity or my time any longer .. it hurts a lot.. but it is truth.. and you spoke it with love and caring of me.. and I saw through to the reality of my life.
Your magic my friend.. pure magic!
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I found my blog theme song with my favorite entertainer.. yep.. Keith Urban!!
I will live to love another day!
One day he is gona regret leaving me this way! I will get back up again..
it may take a lot of time..
but I will survive without him!
And she loved me for a while
Then she said good-bye gotta go
Left me standing on the side of the road
Now she's gone and I'm a memory in her past
And the long and short of it some things never last
(Chorus:)
Oh because summers come, summers go
I'll keep walking down this road
It's alright and it's okay
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
Lord I'm out here again
With my back to the wind
The warm sun that's sinking low
Is gonna leave me out in the cold
But the long and short of it some things never last
And if that goes for the good
It must go for the bad
Chorus
Oh because summers come, summers go
I'll keep walking down this road
It's alright and it's okay
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
If I fall down
I'm not ashamed
I always get back up again
But I'll be fine 'till the right one comes to save me, save me, save me
Lord I fell for her smile
And she loved me for a while
And someday she's gonna wish
She hadn't left me here like this
Chorus
Oh because summers come, summers go
I'll keep walking down this road
It's alright and it's okay
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
I'll live to love another day
( I love his laugh at the end of this song! )
yyyyeeeeehhhaaawww babbby!
lockerridge