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NOVEMBER 5, 2009
I'M ALIVE AND WELL...
TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY
OF THE REST OF MY LIFE..
Hello everyone...
Long time no type from Lockie huh? Well I have no excuse except I did not want to subject you guys to me whining and carrying on like a child over this stupid man who will not leave my heart alone, even though my head says to cut him out of my entire thinking or dreaming life. sigh.. the human condition is such that our own bodies make us war against ourselves.. emotions are truly something which can make you into a screaming, sobbing, mass of nerve endings, when common sense should override them and let us at least be able to function in daily life.. but nope.. especially women.. we have a hard row to hoe gentlemen so be nice to us .. or pay the hormonal imbalanced price!.. if you care that is..
Well I will be okay in the future or I won't.. that is what I have come to realize. I can't control another human being when they do not want to be, especially by being a complete and total doormat for them.. even after I find out another really nasty mean thing they did to me when I was dumb enough to believe I could trust them, I still do a meltdown.. I am a puddle.. a big and really gross puddle when I do that.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.
He is not home... he is with an old girlfriend and I really wish to goodness that when her one and only husband of the many hundreds of men she has been with, divorced her.. he would have just shot her and a lot of misery would not have been spread around by this whore/huzzy... witch... I could go on.. but I bet you get the message. I mean he could have chosen someone else instead of my next door neighbors ex daughter in law you would think.. why just complicate my life a little bit.. he decided to just totally rip me up and down and never even looked backwards. I know I was a lot at fault.. but I have come to realize.. the actions that led up to this that I was acting out.. were a direct result of the actions he was taking with me. Hind sight is always 20/20 and I do not have that pair of glasses handy.. do any of you?
Well lets go onto a happier subject. Last Sunday was my sons 26th birthday and he wanted to go to the local winery's and go on their tasting tours and then to the best bar-b-que joint in the state so.. Mom said okay my treat load up the Lab Caddy (my son works for Lab Corp and has a company car he calls the Lab Caddy even though it is a PT Cruiser).. and away we went!
I do not drink very much at all.. and after we visited three wineries.. Mom, Jamie, and Cally were a little bit buzzed to say the least.. and I hate the taste of the stuff.. warm rotten fruit juice is my tasting report card.. but it was fun.. lots of fun! The bar-b-que place was closed by the time we finally made it back to Ozark from the top of St. Marys Mountain where they have a convent and some really spectacular views! It is in the slide show I got for you to see what I saw last Sunday.
Last thing is that Kenny Chesney and Dave Matthews have teamed up, old time rock and roll and country, to produce this duet that I simply adore. It is called I'm Alive.. posted a video and the lyrics.. just listen to the easy melody and the words and you will instantly feel calm and blessed
I'm Alive
Kenny Chesney
Featuring - Dave Matthews
So damn easy to say that life's so hard
Everybody's got their share of battle scars
As for me I'd like to thank my lucky stars that
I'm alive and well It'd be easy to add up all the pain
And all the dreams you've sat and watch go up in flames
Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain
But not me... I'm alive
And today you know that's good enough for me
Breathing in and outs a blessing can't you see
Today's the first day of the rest of my life
And I'm alive and well
I'm alive and well
Stars are dancing' on the water here tonight
It's good for the soul when there's not a soul in sight
This motor's caught its wind and brought me back to life
Now I'm alive and well
And today you know that's good enough for me
Breathing in and outs a blessing can't you see
Today's the first day of the rest of my life
Now I'm alive and well
Yeah I'm alive and well
Love to you all ..
Lockie the Single and Hormonal Bunny.
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