Lockie on the Move Again
I guess I kind of did fall off the edge a bit, for a while there. Seemed like nothing was ever going to stay good in my life in reference to those I love.
I keep losing them... and that is a bitch when you can't go where they are to find them again.
I seem to not be able to see the symptoms of a totally one sided relationship, and in the same vein the ones I love, seem to not ever love me as much as I do them, and I seem to always end up getting really hurt.
like I am absolutely nothing but something to use, it seems they have a way of making me feel guilty if I say no to one of their requests. In the end it does not net me anything except getting hurt and used.
I do not know why I have this ability to make myself into someone whom they do not respect, but I have taken some time and put a lot of thought into the matter and I have decided...
I can't help who I am.
I can't help how I treat people, and it is really a sad thing when that kind of giving personality attracts the most sneaky and dishonest types of people. I am trying to not be so naive in my handling of the new people who have come into my life lately, and I absolutely hate this kind of thinking that makes me look to see if they are just trying to get something out of me later on by being nice to me today.
I do not trust anyone anymore and I simply hate it!
I thought perhaps if I moved to a new location and left all the nasty memories and people behind it would be better ... but once again I am...
WRONG!
When I closed on this piece of property I bought in the town I am now working in ... it was a part of the agreement that the seller would provide for me a perc test for the septic system. This test is supposed to provide the health department with a soil sampling to determine if the septic system will drain well by the soil type and if I can just put in a standard type septic tank and the lateral lines leading out from it in a normal type way.. okay.. I am cool with that.. since I will be on city water anyway.. I am not to worried about the ground water becoming contaminated from a septic system..
So after I had closed on the property and put in for an address to be issued to me, I contacted the water company and put in a request to be hooked into their water line that runs in front of the property.. it took them two weeks to call me and tell me that there were no more hookups on the line allowed on that particular system. Apparently the developer of the property opted to not upgrade the water system when he started to sell the lots..
ARGH!
I was irritated to say the least and contacted the real estate agent about the whole thing.. she told me that it was not a matter that had to be disclosed to me in the normal disclosures, one has to provide when selling a piece of property, if it does not have an existing home on it..
sucks but legal.. sigh..
So I drilled a well. It sounds as though it will provide enough water to me to do anything I need to do.. but since the electric company has taken a month to get to me.. how the hell am I supposed to know if it does or not since I can't get the pump in the well without power to tell me if it is what the driller said it was or not!
Back to the septic system and perc test... sigh... when I contacted a plumber about getting the pump in the well, the gas hooked up from the natural gas line and the septic system put in the ground.. he told me I needed a copy of the perc test to give him with the septic system diagram on it that a rep from the health department was supposed to have filed with the health department. So I went to the health department and they have nothing on file from any perc test done for me.. and when I gave them the name of the woman who was to do the diagramming and all the filing with them.. she said that another person was given my project and when the health department tried to contact him.. he is getting a divorce and the contact number is no good and no one knows where the hell he is living at now..
and he has already been paid....
I feel a major screwing coming over me without aide of lubricant!!!
I have given up on anyone from the new town being honest and trying to help me by actually doing their jobs. So I contacted my electrician from home and he has promised to help me all he can. I am already into him for over 600 dollars in materials and labor and I am still yet to have power or water or sewer or gas to my house!
He is scheduled to come back tomorrow to hook the house up to the power which, the power company told him on Friday they could not set the meter until Monday... I was there yesterday and the meter was in the loop..
ARGH!!!!!!!
I have reached maximum overload folks!!
Tomorrow I plan to arrive very early indeed to the new town in which I am moving and make a mark for myself.
I mean a big black streak with fire shooting from it!
This is what is commonly called..
BULLSHIT!..
where I come from and I do think it would be known to the rest of the country as such also.
Why does this always happen to Terri?...
I guess cause they can do it to me and I never reach maximum overload...
This is a learned quality I think, and I am about to learn how!
So I will fill you in later on the results of my fact finding mission tomorrow and until then...
"Never let 'em see you sweat, and don't make apologies for who you are just to feel valued by others."
Dire Straits Instrumental
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