APRIL 11, 2008 MAY I ALWAYS FIND CONTENTMENT WITHIN MYSELF..FOR MY FRIEND PEGGY LOU

APRIL 11, 2008 MAY I ALWAYS FIND CONTENTMENT WITHIN MYSELF.. FOR MY FRIEND PEGGY LOU May I always keep my contentment within myself, to be aware that my greatest gift to others who spend time with me, is that I am always someone I like and respect enough to spend my time with.terri mccain 2008 For my friend Peggy Lou... I too have a best friend in my child. I too have had to let him do what I worked so hard to make happen. I had to let him go and live somewhere without me. At times when he reached that age of trying to do without my constant presence in his life.. there were so many days.. oh.. I will admit I wished he would just grow up! But that day.. that day when he said, "Mom, I am moving in with some people you don't know.. in a town you don't know much about, a lot of miles away from you," I thought my very reason for living had just stopped needing me. I walked in the woods a lot.. a whole lot. The whole time I walked and cried for the separation feeling was great.. I knew this was the day I wanted for him and myself as well. I have never come to terms with his not being right here with me. And when he got his heart broken once again recently.. it was all I could do to not make myself a nusiance. He needs to have the time to himself with people of his own age to find out just exactly who he is.. and I can't help myself.. I have to help when there is a problem.. and it is the worst thing I could do for him. I will cry with you Peggy Lou with you take that walk in the woods. I will be right there beside you, as well as every mother who ever did what we have to do at some point in our childs life.. we have to be on our own again. We have to learn to focus on our ownselves once again. It is unfamilar to us.. being a mother is not something you ever stop being for the rest of your life, or her life. And that is the best part of being someones Momma. It is a gift that never ends.. and a love that no one will ever be able to match for this person you made.. After all we know them nine months longer than anyone on earth. You are not alone Peggy Lou.. for there are millions of us out here who had to face the same thing. Our childs shining bright face, eager with anticipation, ready for lifes adventure to begin.. and that stray tear they shed when your close.. because they are torn.. between childhood and taking on the lifelong job of becoming a grown up. I am a firm believer that becoming a grownup is something I will never achieve. I will always long for my momma to tell me what to do .. So my friend Peggy Lou.. your not done yet... this growing up of ourselves and our children is never over.. As she lifts up her wings to fly.. Peggy lift yours also.. and be ready to fly with her if she needs you and .. believe me.. she will .. very much. And you need to learn that freedom of solo flight once again.. to remember the sweet feeling that comes that first day you realize.. you don't have to .. do the laundry because someone else will need clean clothes.. your can have anything to eat for dinner you would like.. if you want popcorn for supper.. go for it.. it might be the step that takes you to grown up land. ( it won't.. but I tried it anyway) Good luck Peggy Lou's Kid and her Soldier Boy.. May you always be as much in love with life and each other as you are this moment in your life. God Speed You on Your Fantastic Journey Called Life graphics and music host for my blog provided by photobucket.com glitter-graphics.com and fileden.com lockerridge