JUNE 30, 2009 HOW WE REACT TO SOME THINGS REALLY SURPRISES US AT TIMES...
Recently, we have had a lot of famous people to pass away. Some because of the evil of a disease that seems to have no end to its appetite for human life. Some to just having lived a good long life and their bodies just wore out and they went on to get a new and better version in Glory. And then we have had some that came as a total surprise and that is the one that has taken me by surprise in my reaction to it.
If you have been on my contact list for any time at all.. you probably know that in my life I have faced up to a lot of loss of loved ones and am carrying on in spite of myself and the effects that can have on a person. I am by no means the same person I was only 10 years ago.. but whom among us is? No matter the circumstances. So when Michael Jackson died so suddenly last week... this coming on the heels of losing Farrah Fawcett, and Ed McMahon.. and Kung Fu Dude.. David Carridean.. it shouldn't have bothered me as much as it has.
You are listening to the one song this man has produced as an adult in a solo role... that I actually like to listen to ..( if you haven't turned it off because your sick to death of hearing about the guy)
I spoiled the songs he gave the world by watching him perform them.. and gotta say.. the guy turned me off totally with his stage presence. The grabbing of a crotch should be left in the bathroom or back alley and not on a world tour, in front of millions of young people who were allowed by their parents to be so dramatic and overcome with emotions about this guy that they would actually pass out from the thrills.. sigh..
I did learn to moon walk.. simply because it was too cool not to be able to do it!
I think I surprised myself most about my reaction to the man passing away in that I simply can't get it off my mind. I am the same age as he and I grew up listening to the Jackson Five and The Osmond's. Donnie Osmond is also the same age as Michael and I. I actually bought and still own the 45 record of Ben.
I remember spending the night with my Granny and we would watch.. some fella whose first name was Andy and his signature song was Moon River.. and he had the two singing groups on his show a lot.. I remember singing along with..
ABC.. Easy as 123.. Baby You and Me!
I loved the version of The Wizard of Oz that they came out with to be the "black" version of the classic movie .. Michael played the scarecrow and the song.. "Ease on Down the Road" was their answer to "Follow The Yellow Brick Road"... it was a fantastic movie.. and I loved it.. and never saw the reason for the need for the "black" version other than entertainment value. But I think it made a statement perhaps for them, and I applaud any kind of work that makes someone feel more at home in the world they live in.
I think that is what bothers me the most about the famous singer passing away so young. He never seemed able to handle his own life. He was a brilliant musician.. simply brilliant. He was just weirder than me I guess and that made him so... well weird! And the man was definitely weird you will have to admit! But it was an understandable weird. Seemed like everybody wanted a piece of him, but I don't think he ever really felt loved for just being himself by anyone.
I had a hard time making up my own mind about the child molester thing. The media just makes me so sick with their garbage they throw out at us and sadly most folks eat it up with a spoon. I don't believe a word of anything I read from the media anymore... They are causing wars and causing panic and pandering to the elite who can further their careers by making headlines by feeding them a big bowl of crapola for us to eat, while reading our morning papers. So I suppose I never did really decide if I believed it or not.. till now.
I have thought it over and went back and looked at the whole thing that was put out by the media .. and then I looked at the people who testified for the man. Then I looked at the ones who accused the man of deviance.
I don't think he did it.
Plain and simple I think he got shafted by society and its eagerness to believe anything ugly about someone in the lime light of life. Movie stars, Rock and Country Music Stars... I pray for those folks ... they have too much money, too much freedom, and too much adoration to not be affected by Hollywood and its party life.. the public are just nuts now.. they follow these people around and every scrap of dirt or information that comes out to the public they simply go nuts over it. Like they were these peoples next door neighbors or something. I understand the young people having idols and wishing they could have what the stars do... but when it runs into people in their 60's and 70's standing in line for days in zero weather to get Rolling Stones tickets.. folks that is just too far out on a cliff for me to think they are playing with a level playing field.. about a half a bubble off plumb is where I categorize these people!
I still have not figured out why I have had such a strong reaction to his death, other than I suppose I had to face my own mortality in the age bracket I am in. When I first found out that the music from my teens and twenties are now the Classics.. well that knocked me back a bit, but not like this has hit me. I know I have lived more life than I have left to live.. but for some reason I just never believed it I suppose ... I am getting older and older every day. The world is turning faster and faster with each passing moment and here we are in the middle of a economic melt down that has already cooled and is getting hard at the edges.. I will not have the end of life my folks got to have, but then I did not have the hard life they had when they first began their lives.
I feel most worry about our children. They have never had a day of real want in their lives. When I say want I am talking food, clothing, shelter, and security of knowing there are jobs out there if they want them. My folks grew up with nothing and built something. Now that is in danger ... and I and you all are in charge of it all.
What we manage to save and leave behind our kids will get and .. sigh... they will just never be able to understand how hard it was to get. I never understood the fear in my fathers life when it came to him having a job. Until I surfed around in google and found some really really honest photos of what the depression was like. I don't even want to think of living that life again... I don't know how.
Thanks for listening to me... I just felt the need to talk today... more than usual that is!
lockerridge
Very 100% agree with your posting especially on this statement 'and gotta say.. the guy turned me off totally with his stage presence. The grabbing of a crotch should be left in the bathroom or back alley and not on a world tour, in front of millions of young people who were allowed by their parents to be so "
ReplyDeleteand I too wonder as of you that 'why the media either electronic or daily papers are giving so much of glory to his death' the one who habituated to eat only drugs.
As on date 153 (one seems luckily escaped) people are dead on a flight crash and many other including soldiers and innocent people at those war torn countries and none seems bothered than their families.
Thanks for providing a platform to open up my mind Lockie.
Lockie, it's good to vent. Please vent anytime you feel the need to do so. It keeps you healthy.
ReplyDeleteI agree with everything you've said in your blog.
"But it was an understandable weird. Seemed like everybody wanted a piece of him, but I don't think he ever really felt loved for just being himself by anyone."
Yes, I've always thought this very same thing. I feel that's why he had so many facial changes.
I also didn't believe the molestation thing, either. I think those people were after his money and lied about him. The media had a field day with it.
I did enjoy watching him perform. He was awesome. I could have done without that one thing he did, though....the crotch thing. I didn't like that at all. Loved his dancing and singing.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us.....BIG HUGS
hey there night owl........it bothered me because he was constantly searching......for something I'm afraid he missed.......I dont know what I think about the kids......but it wouldn't surprise me based on the fact that he was, most of his life, a very eligible bachlor and chose not to stay married for very long at a time........which kinda makes me think........he moved like a sexual creature......he dressed like a sexual creature.......but he had no desires? no long string of women? Come on Terri......I dont know.......I would rather not believe it either......but I cant help but believe it.......based on circumstantial evidence that is called his life.......I cant indict him because no court ever did....but it doesn't mean it didn't happen......it just means he had the money to pay for the pleasure.....hope you have a good night.........I wrote a whole blog and then deleted it........I need to get my behind in bed. Hugs! Love you!
ReplyDeleteWe all have to face our own immortality at some time. Mine came when someone I was at college with died at just 44-years of brain cancer. When a peer dies at such a young age, it shakes you up emotionally ... even if you haven't seen them in a couple of years. In your case, you were not a personal friend of MJ, but you felt you knew him well because of his celebrity. It's the same thing. Someone you connect with and who is the same age dies and it is a wake-up shock.
ReplyDeleteI didn't ever like the crotch-grabbing and I have to confess it put me off him. On the question of child molestation ... that's now between him and his God, which is the best place for it to be. Any amount of discussion now will not change a thing.
I had never heard the track you played and I liked it. Toward the trail end part the background arrangement seemed almost the same as that on I'm So Excited by the Pointer Sisters. Listen and see if you agree with me.
Don't be too down for too long, Terri ... it's not good for you. {{{hugs}}}
Because he was The King Of Pop Pd.. Elvis Presely is still known to us as The King Of Rock and Roll.. and he died from a drug overdose ..
ReplyDeleteMichael Jackson and his music from the time he was six years old.. captured us with his voice and then as he left the group and went out on his own.. his genius with putting words that concern everyone into a song that the music and the show he put on just captured you and pulled you along with it.
To my knowledge this is the first anyone has heard from the press about Drugs and Michael Jackson. He was abused as a child by his father and when he started into puberty and his voice began to change.. to keep him from losing the clean tenor voice he had.. they gave this twelve year old boy estrogen to keep him from going into young manhood. They did this for years.. He was kept out of the public eye because the public would tear them to pieces if they could get their hands on them.
His life story was made into a movie and even his own father .. his abuser agreed that is factual.. and it is truly sad Pd.. the song Ben was about a rat.. a rat that lived in his kitchen. That rat was the only playmate and friend he had in his childhood.. He was used and he was certainly abused.. but the public loved him.. and they still do .. it is no wonder he could not handle living life on the outside in the sunshine.. he didn't know how.
Thanks for reading and commenting JaeElle. I have not been able to get this matter off my mind! Writng the blog helped. I suppose I am in time of transitioning my thoughts and my plans. If one can make plans these uncertain days.
ReplyDeleteThere was a report yesterday from some of Michaels friends and yes.. lovers.. Brooke Sheilds for one.. that he was obsessed by death. Always was fascinated and wanted to talk about it. My husband was also like that.. I know the weakness that promotes that kind of thought pattern. They just do not know how to cope.. with anything. No one ever taught them how. Spoiled yeah that too.. but mostly insecure and the only words I can find to describe the type of person who is like this is .. in need of a mother.. to protect and love and not ignore and be silent when they are being abused by their father. They have no place they can go that makes them feel like they are not constantly messing up .. and it will not be tolerated.
I don't believe it Crystal. He was not a public person except when he was on tour or promoting a tour or his albums. He did not go out into the public eye at all.. because they picked him apart and he just could not handle it.
ReplyDeleteRemember when his baby was a baby and the crowds outside his hotel were there for days.. not hours.. but days.. yelling.. and yelling.. "Show us your son!"... until he finally picked the baby up and held him to the window.. and then when he did that.. the media went nuts saying he put the baby in danger by holding him out the window of a multistoried hotel.. he could not win for losing.
I read and reread and looked and what cinched it for me was Ryan White and McCauley Culkin.. They both spent a lot of time with him. He wanted to play.. and he didn't know how is all. He built an an estate that was a childs dream.. and invited them to come play.
And somebody somewhere made somebody jealous or mad and the parents saw a way to get rich.. I would never have put my kid through something like that in the public eye.. that was the abuse if you ask me.
I just do not think the man did it.. he may had gotten close and someone took it wrong.. as far as him not having a string of women.. how can we really know that either.. I mean.. we know for sure of Lisa Marie and Brooke.. and his wife.. I think maybe Brittany too.. Remember he was slow to go into puberty because they held him back with female hormones.. that one thing right there just makes me ill!
I am somewhat numb to the celebrities passing as a dear, close friend died about a week before. I wake up each day hoping to watch a game with him, go to the lake with him, go golfing with him - and then I realize that it will never happen again.
ReplyDeleteThank you Locki for the explanations
ReplyDeleteAw Sue you know me.. you can't keep me down for long.. I gotta grin and spread it around if I can! lol.. I agree that the man is gone now and all the specualtion and the talk are never going to be sorted out because he is not here to defend himself or explain it.. but then if he were here.. he wouldn't of done that either.
ReplyDeleteHe went off a cliff a while back.. and even The Wiz was not going to be able to bring him back up ... When I saw what he had done to himself with the plastic surgeries.. I realized this..
I just wish it could have been different for him. I feel such sorrow for him in my heart and I know that is unreasonable at this stage.. but then at any other stage it would not have been reasonable either.
He was a child star who went on to become indeed an icon to the world. But he was weird now.. real real weird!
He had a lot of money. He had a lot of talent.. and he spent that money on making his music and shows an absolute production of such thought out detailed design that it made more money and more money.
The age old saying that it takes money to make money.. showed itself to be true with Michael Jackson.. God Rest His Soul..
I know you have had a great loss .. I read your blogs and I do not know if I had the words to comment to you.. but I hope I did.
ReplyDeleteI also understand the feelings your having. I am not going to tell you that you will get over it.. I never have gotten over a loss in my life .. I just found a way to walk around it OJ.. somethings can't be gotten over.. you just have to find a way around them.. cause.. you have to live... until you die.. you can be one of the worthless walking dead people who never can pull themselves out of the pain.. or you can celebrate the time you had together.. not the time he will be gone from your life.. cause that is the way THEY would have wanted it to be for you.. honor him with carrying on OJ.. and take him with you everywhere you go.
I know you have had a great loss .. I read your blogs and I do not know if I had the words to comment to you.. but I hope I did.
ReplyDeleteI also understand the feelings your having. I am not going to tell you that you will get over it.. I never have gotten over a loss in my life .. I just found a way to walk around it OJ.. somethings can't be gotten over.. you just have to find a way around them.. cause.. you have to live... until you die.. you can be one of the worthless walking dead people who never can pull themselves out of the pain.. or you can celebrate the time you had together.. not the time he will be gone from your life.. cause that is the way THEY would have wanted it to be for you.. honor him with carrying on OJ.. and take him with you everywhere you go.
Yes, I understand, Lockie. I realize that he had a bad childhood. Now, I'm worried that the children might be given to his parents. I'm thinking they could be abused, in some of the same ways.
ReplyDeleteEverything you told PD, above, I was not aware of. I learned something from you tonight. Thank you. I heard about a movie being made about his life, but never got to see it. I forgot about it, until I read what you said. You've given a lot of information here....in your blog and in comments. All very interesting and some is news to me. I am a Michael Jackson fan. I always have been.
Thanks, Lockie.
Your welcome my friend. Although I do agree with you that the media is making me just want to scream at them.. and so is his family with the public appearances and the digging into the most private of all times in a a families lives.
ReplyDeletethe media needs to back off and just leave it be.. let the people mourn.. but then again.. that family does everything for a media blitz if they can.. it is show business and that is their way of life.. I find it very ugly.. wouldn't want it for all the money in the world.. could not buy me into that nastiness!
But I can understand how it would make yo mad to see only him in the news and nothing about the rest of the things in the world going to hell.. but we have that everyday now don't we?..
This will drag on for months and months.. there is going to be a battle over his kids.. if there is not.. then something is wrong with the mother of those kids.. but then again.. what is right with the mother of those kids.. sigh..
I have no idea why it is bothering me. .. and I have no idea why I feel like I need to defend him. But if it is that strange an occurance in my way of feeling and doing things.. then I feel I must pay attention to it and act on it.. God does work and move in the most strange and curious ways.. I am learning a lesson at least from this..
Heaven is a heartbeat away.. every heart beat could be the last.. I need to know that and accept it .. and know it is not scary or sometime way in the future. I am indeed mortal. No one is exempt.
Sorry Lockie girl that this hit you so hard.. I am one year younger so I know how you feel on some instances. We all question our time left here..Doesnt matter what I believe so I'll leave it at that..I hope and wish you peace today..
ReplyDeleteThis is what I mean Lockie, now you are with me.
ReplyDeleteThank you Kim.. I wrote this so we could all have a place to say what we believe without anyone saying we are wrong in our thoughts. This is the vent with the steam coming from it today.. so if you believe something and wanted to put it here.. that would be fine.. but if you don't wanna.. that be fine too girlfriend! lol.. I am just wanting to talk today and my friends are honing in on that need in a big way.. the comments I make are long.. and full of personal opnions and things.. but that is the need for today.. if it is your need to.. let fly.. nobody will argue with you.. if they do.. I will make them go away! lol..
ReplyDeletePeeking in on you!
ReplyDeleteWhen you don't get approval from your parent.. when nothing is ever good enough.. you will always look for that approval and it will never quite be enough..
ReplyDeleteI am sadden for his loved ones, Was more surprise than shock to hear about MJ..
can't say I was a follower of his.. Did like some of his songs.. long sigh... did not like to watch him..
grabbing his self.. I never understood what that was about.. maybe he was telling someone.. (at his fame) EAT THIS!! Just do not know..
But still.. 50 is just too early for anyone to die. 80 is still too young!!
I know.. or have been near.. MR MOLESTER.. they do not want attention they want to blend in.. they want to go un noticed. That's why they look like the common person on the street. That is why they attend little league and even coach it..
ReplyDelete'Sexual predators' do not draw attention to thy self.. I know.. from living it!
MJ was a showman. That's what he was taught as a child. (from the movie about his life.)
His dress went with the job.. the job was the only way he knew how to live..
He was broke and still lived like a king.. HOW?
He borrowed and borrowed money.. HOW?
I can not get medical help for myself or kids because at $2000 under poverty level we make to much money?
HOW?
It has been said that he had health problems.. maybe he had this planned? Maybe he needed the attention.. Maybe he saw this as a way to go out on top.. Maybe the pain of his mind, life, situation.. was just too much..
MAYBE.. it was just his time..
All the autopsies all of the investigations are not going to bring him back.. Yes.. I understand the family wants to know if there was wrong doing.. but honestly..
For his family I think it boils down to MONEY!!
But all of the media attention is out of hand. Plane crashes, about to be wars.. other happenings are all in small font... WHY?
I got to leave this comment section before I go over board..
Lockie.. you sure know your stuff. I admire that about you.
DON'T EVER let anyone tell you , you are stupid. Don't ever! Let someone put you down because they disagree with you. Not only here.. EVERYWHERE!! ALL THE TIME!!
Love ya GF!!
Wow.. everythought I have had.. and have not voiced.. or have been cut off in conversation.. Just came out.
Aren't you the lucky one!
Oh Lockie, I believe it's all in the song you have posted. I will never ever tire of hearing Michael sing or watching re-runs of Charlie's Angels or The Johnny Carson Show. These people represented a part of my pass that helped to mold me. They gave me found memories, evoked emotions, marked a time in my life... As each part of my pass fade with buildings being torn down and new malls being built in it's place or people passing, it feels as if a part of me is also fading. But I also feel that moments like these also help me to remember and appreciate the past for all the good and bad things. It helps me to pass the stories that I know down to my children. As it is a required reading here, Mice and Men was during the dust bowl times and relating it to what is happening today just makes history too real. I can feel the fall of the great depression and how men could throw themselves out of windows. The sense of helplessness of time being erased where there is no visible future.
ReplyDeleteI also feel that this is a part of what makes us eventually stronger. That it is a lesson we have to learn. All different for each person, but significant to make us whole. Hope is always out there for us all. We have to keep looking and keep learning and keep working together...
I'm right there with you Lockie. I think this picture sums me up...
Yes Dani.. I am the lucky one to have you for my friend.. and my sister. I am glad you spoke what you thought here .. no one will read this and think anything other than.. what I already know. Your heart is big and it is so easily bruised.. your smart, and your funny, and the thoughts you think and the experiences you have had in life .. have shown us all .. just how intelligent and loyal a friend you are to us all.. I just would give up a whole lot before I would cut off my knowing you.. we would get a smoke signal thing going if nothing else..
ReplyDeleteI love my sweet sister dani.. but you knew that already didn't you?
Another famous person died today.. Carl Malden.. at the ripe old age of 97. I remember his nose and thinking it could not be real when I was a kid.. lol.. I remember him as a man with kindness that just oozed out of him. He had to have been like that in reality. There is no way anyone could fake that kind of personality I don't think.
ReplyDeleteI have read The Grapes of Wrath for the first time this year.. and then read it again.. and once more. I found an album at the Google images site that is full of real life depictions of what my dad and mom used to try to describe to me, but could not really make me understand. Their childhoods where so incredibly desperate. So hard and they were never allowed to put themselves first in any situation as our kids have been all their lives. They come first and that is how we were raised.. but my folks were not raised that way at all!
When they had dinner.. the adults ate first.. and then the kids got what was left after the Daddy's belly was full. That is not how it is today. The Daddy will go hungry to give his food to his child.
Times and the way of living have changed.. but so have the basic personalities and beliefs of people.
When my mom was a kid.. women had just obtained the right to vote. Most of the time they were just window dressing for a man and treated really badly. And they took it because they had it better than their mothers did.. I shudder to think of what life could become for us .. None of us would survive it I don't think.. we all take ourselves so seriously any more. And over nothing really. nothing.
I love ya sweetie.. and I know your with me.. you always have been.. as I am here for you. Yahoo 360 turned a bunch of human beings from little spots of dirt all over this world into some of the best friends I have ever had in my life.. and could ever hope to have ..
Hold on to each other is what we gotta do .. and it won't seem so bad as it would if we didn't have each other..
lockie
Remember this little graphic you sent to me a long time ago.. first time I ever saw it and it still just tickles me to death to look at it..
if any pic is what I feel like today and for the most part of this week.. this one would have to be it!
I had to look for 30 minutes.. but I found this one.. I love it!!!
ReplyDeleteOH YEAH!!!! I love the slap.. Just blind sides the sucker!! Hahahahaha.
ReplyDeleteAhahahahaha. I just looked through over 600 photos of MJ, fans, memorials - all over our world!, But what I do not understand.. AND IF I were there in the middle of it all I would not buy into. T-shirts being sold! Who gets that money.. You mean If I printed out 500 shirts with MJ's face and dates on it. Get me a vendor permit, I could stand by and sell them for 20? 30? dollars a pop?.. I just sit here shaking my head.. I guess some people say, "Hell Yeah!! He made money from us all these years.. WHY NOT!" Not me.. guess this is why I will stay wearing my yard sale, salvation army clothes!! LoL!
Another thing about our elders.. if we acted out we were (they were) back handed!. Slapped right out of the chair.. If you messed up.. (worse on purpose). Oh yes.. kids these days.. don't have to answer for or take the consequences.. no... It's like we say, "Now johnny, that is not what I expect from you." 'Well no duh!..' And Johnny goes on with his life...
My Great grandmother got married. climbed into a covered wagon, waved goodbye to her mother, and crossed america with a wagon train to find her own land.. And now..
Off track!! We take too much for granite.. Not just material things.. There is peace.. in most of our days.. we might not always see it, cause we did not get our favorite Latte.. but it is here. And we feel like this right now when that peace is missing, questioned.. interrupted.
Hahahahaha Glad the Penguin finally scored one!!
They are selling Tshirts? sigh.. Disrespect.. so disrespectful of the family. But then again I have to look at his family.. Janet and his Dad going to the BEA Extravaganza Tribute.. three days after the man died. Jamie Foxx wearing all his style clothing.. the entire tribute was gross! Momma stayed home where she could mourn the man who had been her son. Her husband and daughter went for the media attention. They broke into show business clawing and scratching for every bit of notice they could get.. or rather Joe Jackson did.. he is a lazy SOB if you ask me. His tactics of sitting in a chair while they choreographed a song with a belt and if they messed up.. he beat the hell out of them.. made them into professional looking singers and entertainers.. dedicated to making the details click .. when they had no money for the pro tutoring .. I suppose it worked.. but at what freaking price? That family is either hiding out and wants nothing to do with show buisness.. or they are dressing up and bouncing up to the head of the line with anything to get attention at their disposal.. I suppose what I am trying to say is this.. I can see Janet and Joe selling those Tshirts with no problem. no problem at all.. But Momma and his brothers.. and maybe Latoya.. just want to be left to their pain.
ReplyDeleteAPPOLO Sold TICKETS!!! to the tribute.. 600 allowed in - each 'show' was 45 minutes.. let in another 600.. ALL DAY!! Sad..
ReplyDeleteIf mom dies, Diana Ross is to his the children.
Several pix have Joe Jacksons, smiling. I'm sorry.. if my child died.. I would not be smiling.. NOTHING! Could make me laugh and have a good time..
I was looking for articles about Farrah Fawcet.. and kept tripping over the Jackson stuff.
Reached here again to read the comments Locki
ReplyDeleteHello PD! You are welcome on my page at any place you wish to be at anytime syou wish to be there! As I know I am at yours.
ReplyDeleteI have 60 views for this blog post .. made by 13 people. Seems I am not the only one who felt the need to talk about this stuff. That is what I am doing with these comments, and in the blog itself.
We have covered everything that is a part of this tragic death of some entertainers that were exceptionally talented at doing just that. The only reason that the recently passed famous people are being discussed and speculated on so much, especially Micheal Jackson, is the media and their dash and crash to gather people to their televison and internet articles.. if they don;t .. their competition will just run way ahead of their ratings and money and perhaps their own fame. which generates more money..
They are going to make us sick of hearing his name.... seeing his videos on YouTube, reporting the same event in so many different ways.. that I can't understand why they are being so shoddy in their references and conversations with the family spokesmen. This is what the media has reduced itself to.
later indiantater!
I want to thank everyone who has commented and came back to view my reply to your post.
The more I read and the more I see the videos and pictures from the last few weeks before he passed away.. I think he knew something was wrong with him Dani.
ReplyDeleteThe first part of June he made a public appearance in London to announce to his fans there that he was planning a tour of 50 concerts in that country and I did not read anything about his putting any on anywhere else.
The video showed that he waited in the car until after they had introduced him. He made his way slowly to the stage and he kept telling random people he loved them.. and the people who were there just scared me with the intensity of their worship of this fella. It was not a normal kind of reaction to his announcing he was quitting. He kept saying This will be it.. No more.. This will be all.. I love you all so much.. but this is the end of it.. he wandered around on the stage asking questions about the microphone that were unnecessary. His attention to details, when he had to adlib it led him to look like someone with obsessive compulsion disorder. He looked anything but healthy and able to do this come back to leave tour. I have a feeling that the way he danced and put his body through so much muscle stress and strain with it.. the trips and falls he has to have been through.. He probably did hurt.. and badly all of the time. His nurse reported that he called perhaps the day before with a request for her to come over and hook him up to an iv of a drug used in anethesia during a surgery. She was shocked and told him it was dangerous and he might not wake up from it if he did it all the time. He told her that his doctor told him it would not hurt anything. Well shewwas right wasn't she?
At the same time he was on stage making the announcments his promoters where finalizing the auction of a couple of his gloves.. he said he was trying to get out of debt.. Why in the world did he need his own personal on call 24/7 doctor and nurse if he was not ill? He was ready to go, I think.. and sometimes that is all that needs happen.. for a person to just give up and they can wish themselves dead and it happens.. my Aunt Jean did it in 24 hours.
He was trying to get out of debt.. yet the will gives Estate..nothing cash or liquid.. but a trust fund I think? I will have to read again.
ReplyDeleteHe was either ill or very stoned.. He could barely walk with out the aid of others.. Reports long ago said his health was bad.. someone (brother or rep.) said there was nothing to tell at this time.
Nothing will bring him back.. sad yes. He may have known it, may have helped it.. Maybe.. He was ill enough (mentally to know this would be the only way to provide for his kids.. You know, alot of money (royalties) are generating from record sales , etc. (memorabilia.)
Love ya.
I watched all of the memorial service.. it was really very well done. Quiet and respectful.. a true tribute to someone who has passed on. I am glad they brought the casket .. I dunno if he was in it.. but it made it a real deal for folks. A gold plated casket, sigh... I suppose I could say it was too much.. but if they could afford to send him off like that.. then as the last thing they would be able to do for him.. do it the way you think they would have wanted it.. and Michael.. did sparkle.
ReplyDeleteI wish to goodness the television people would stop running his daughters tears and words over and over and over.. it just sucks.. bad! But now they will be in the light of the media and they will never leave those poor kids alone.. ever.. just like Anna Nichole Smiths little girl.. she will be shut away like Lisa Marie Presley.. and Michael Jackson.
I keep getting facts from people who are not in the media... but doctors and spokes people and just plain people who were actual friends with him that I can see why the man wanted pain relievers and something to make him sleep.. HIs plastic surgeon said that he had been diagnosed with Lupus a long time ago.. My mom had Lupus and well for her to get up and dance like that man did... and be able to walk to the bathroom for a month afterward would have been impossible. the fever and the depression.. and there is a skin problem with the disease as well.. large dark bown butterfly like spots will just appear on their nose, forehead.. mostly the areas that are exposed to the elements.. doctor told her it was her immune system working over time. I have seen her be so sore she just layed and tried not to move at all.. not even one muscle.. it was heartbreaking.
She took predisone .. a type of cortizone steroid to relieve the pain and push back the symptoms.. it eventually will go into hyperdrive and start to attack the internal organs and basically your bodies immune system kills you.. if something else doesn't first.. like with Mom.
Well enough about this icon of the entertainment world and fame and fortune that I will never have a real inkling what it is really like.. on to other things.. Like an NCIS marathon on TNT.. I love Abbey and Gibbs!
Good night Dani.. I loves ya.. but you know that already!