Turning the Pages of My Life
Saturday, May 1, 2010
For those who might wonder about me.. I am going to be offline for an extended amount of time. I do not know when I will be back, but I am sure I will return at some date.I have had another blow to my personal life and I can't seem to concentrate very well right now. But hopefully I will be alright soon. I can't seem to stop myself from setting up the scenario to let myself be hurt by people I trusted. And this time it is a really big one. Got a lot of soul searching to do, to find out what it is that makes me the way I am, open to anyone with a dart or a knife to the back, and they feel justified in doing it to me. I am doing something wrong.. and I need to find out what it is and fix it before I do anything else in the way of changes. And I will need all of my concentration to be able to get past this time of disability in the way of broken love and trust and the unveiling of the true persons whom I thought loved me in the form of family members, but are dishonest and lie to me for months and months. Love to you all.Lockerridge
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ReplyDeleteJust the thing you need when you start a new job - sorry to hear it Lockie. Let me know if I can help any.
ReplyDeleteim sorry to see this and wish u the best , keep your heart open and reach out to someone its not good to be alone :/
ReplyDeletetake care and stop by whenever you can
fluffy bunnie hugs
Terri, if there is anything I can do let me know........I know how these things go........I learned as a child........
ReplyDeleteI am sorry Lockie ... it's got to be tough.
ReplyDeleteYou'll be missed. I hope you get things worked out soon.
I'm sorry too Terri....anytime you want to talk by e-mail...I'm here to listen...and will certainly be praying for you. I know you trust God....He'll never let you down...keep holding to His hand...God bless you sis.
ReplyDeleteMy e-mail address if you want it...
chieflady1934@yahoo.com
Instead of thinking you're doing something wrong, realize humans will always disappoint you, no matter who they are, and if you are doing something wrong, it may be looking for love in all the wrong places. I'll pray for you too.
ReplyDeleteLockie, it's not you. Giving out love and trust is natural. Getting kicked in the teeth in return is not ... so it is THEIR problem not yours. That said, if you are attracted to this sort of disappointment, then I urge you to get some counselling. I'm not a great believer in counselling just for the sake of it, but book a few appointments and talk and talk and talk and somehow you may realise just why people feel they can disppoint you like this. You may be far too open ... enough to leave yourself open to being taken advantage of. Again, this isn't a fault in you, but we all have to learn survival techniques against being taken for a ride.
ReplyDeleteYou have my email address and if ever you want to offload, vent, or otherwise just spend time out from your troubles, please get in touch. You're a good and giving person Lockie and well appreciated by those here whom you have helped and chatted to and please don't think everyone takes advantage. You'll be missed, so don't take too long a time out. Good luck in sorting out your emotions and your life. **Hug**
we'll be here when you get back and i'll keep you in my prayers. sometimes family is the worst enemy.
ReplyDeleteHey sweetie!! Can't imagine anyone treating you like that! It's not you....it's them.....they have a low self-esteem and need to take their frustrations out on YOU. Just continue to be YOU!! We love you and know what a wonderful person you truly are. Don't be gone too long....we will miss you so much, but will be here when you do return and I know you will return. ((huggs)) and many prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to be betrayed. You are not the problem, but taking a look at your life isn't a bad thing either. You'll emerge stronger than before. We'll be here when you get back!
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