AUGUST 28, 2009 IT'S TIME TO GET DOWN TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER..

   

AUGUST 28, 2009   IT'S TIME TO GET DOWN   TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER... Your friend Lockie has been going through a time of transition.  One that has not been kind to my emotional or mental well being in fact. It seems as though the era of Lockie and Homer has come to an end. At least according to Homer he has had enough of my being ... umm... what he has turned me into!  Yeah I made a joke.. but this is truly one of the hardest things I have had to face in a long time. Another turning point.. another page torn out and rewritten again in my lifetime. It would seem I am once again facing a new beginning in the middle of the old beginnings ending. I have always been able to find a song to express my deepest hearts torment and this time is no different.  When I am able to find the words to my life story, in another persons poetry of their sorrow or joy.. it gives me courage to know I am not the first nor will I be the last to face these same problems, and walk on through them. Always hopefully to a better day,  in Gods' Perfect Plan. Without kicking up too big a fuss anyway.. The major problem right now is Homer can't seem to make a full commitment to either going, or staying and trying to figure out the problem.. and I just can't handle this kind of torment any longer.. so this is for my Gary from your Terri.. I do love you.. and you love me..  maybe it is all about .. forgiveness ..  even if we don't love each other any more..  or if we do.. it is all about forgiveness.. It's Time To Get Down To The Heart of The Matter Don Henley       I got the call today That I didn't wanna hear  But I knew that it would come An old, true friend of ours was talking on the phone She said you'd found someone And I thought of all the bad luck, And the struggles we went through  And how I lost me and you lost you What are these voices outside loves open door  Make us throw off our contentment And beg for something more? I'm learning to live without you now  But I miss you sometimes The more I know, the less I understand  All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again I've been trying to get down To the heart of the matter  But my will gets weak  And my thoughts seem to scatter But I think its about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me anymore These times are so uncertain There's a yearning undefined  And people filled with rage We all need a little tenderness  How can love survive in such a graceless age? The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness They're the very things - we kill I guess  Pride and competition  Cannot fill these empty arms And the work I put between us You know it doesn't keep me warm I'm learning to live without you now But I miss you, baby And the more I know, the less I understand All the things I thought Id figured out have to learn again Ive been trying to get down To the heart of the matter  But everything changes  And my friends seem to scatter But I think its about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me anymore There are people in your life who've come and gone They let you down you know they hurt your pride You better put it all behind you baby; life goes on You keep carrying that anger; it'll eat you up inside, baby Ive been trying to get down To the heart of the matter But my will gets weak And my thought seem to scatter But I think its about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me Ive been trying to get down  To the heart of the matter Because the flesh will get weak  And the ashes will scatter So I'm thinking about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me Forgiveness  Forgiveness - baby Forgiveness Forgiveness Forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, you don't love me anymore lockerridge